My life is on hold as I wait for Newcastle United
I am sitting here waiting for Newcastle United.
It’s not healthy.
Deep down, you know that it is crazy that 11 men kicking a ball around a field should get to you so much.
However, that is what Newcastle United has done, and continues to do, to me and so many thousands of others.
That though may be about to change.
My wife and kids are in a position where they have no idea whether or not next month they will be going on holiday in the UK or abroad.
Which is all down to Newcastle United.
Like many of you, the money that we pay out on season tickets and as many away games as we can manage, means that we then compromise on other things, such as holidays. Where we go, or indeed whether we even have one.
Things have reached a point though where that can all change.
I went into the close season fully intending to be renewing the season tickets and we had provisionally planned to go to the lake District for a week this summer as our holiday.
However, I am now at the point where it is all or nothing.
If Mike Ashley doesn’t sell up this time then that is me finished with Newcastle United until he does go.
Not quite a religious moment but I woke up on Saturday thinking what is the fu..ing point?
Even if Rafa Benitez stays on, all the messages from Ashley and his people have been that things aren’t going to change in their approach, Rafa either stays on with very limited improvement in terms of budgets and freedom to operate as he wants, or he leaves and is replaced by a cheap Pardew/Carver/McClaren type stooge.
Whilst I value and respect the job Rafa has done, it is pointless to keep on going to the matches with any expectation of things being any better, unless there was a seismic move to a more ambitious way in running the club at the top.
Most of the matches have been seriously poor in terms of entertainment and fighting relegation season after season is just depressing.
These last three seasons under Rafa will only have any meaning if it meant that now they would be used as some kind of preparation to move forward again.
I have little doubt that instead of that, Mike Ashley simply sees it as confirmation of the perfect way to run a Premier League club. Spend as little as possible each season and you still have a decent chance of staying up, especially when you have three clubs as bad as Huddersfield, Fulham and Cardiff were this season. Then if the worst happens, use some of the money you have stockpiled, along with parachute payments, to guarantee (as Mike Ashley sees it) instant promotion back to Premier League revenues and worldwide TV exposure of his retail empire.
I’m not prepared to do this any longer.
If new owners are confirmed I will be the first to instantly renew the season tickets.
However, until that moment the cash will be staying in our bank account.
Then if the 2019 takeover turns out to be the same as all the other claims of the last 11 years, when Ashley was supposed to be genuinely trying to sell Newcastle United, it will be a case of straight on the internet to book two weeks in the sun and forget about this absolute mess of a football club.
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