Support this mad club of ours I mean.
For sure it is not that we are successful, even this excellent start to the season will soon fade away as Ashley and Liambias continue to wreck any good work that has been achieved to date.
Maybe it is loyalty, maybe it is history, maybe it is just in our DNA – all probably true but for me it is something else, those great moments when something happens that is so unexpected it brings pure ecstasy for a few moments, maybe a minute, when madness takes over.
It has been many years since this has happened to me (watching the Toon!) but Yohan Cabaye did it for me the other day on a dark, cold night in Blackburn in a League Cup tie. Two minutes into extra time we were still 2 down following a frankly poor performance and I was considering which misty road I had left the car in. Others had already left when Guthrie (a ready-made excuse for Ashley to sell Tiote) stuffed one into the bottom corner of the net in front of the massed ranks of the Geordie hordes.
Barely raising a cheer the ball went back to the centre circle and after a bit of fannying around, Lovenkrands succeeded in conning the ridiculously large Samba into a foul.
‘Has to score’ was the mumblings so up stepped our quality French import to curl an absolutely cracker into the top corner of the net.
The thing about the moment was as soon as he hit it I knew it was going in, almost surreal.
Cue absolute bedlam in the away end and pure euphoria, as I said earlier it was simply a moment that can only be found when something remarkable happens in an instant in a football ground.
A reflection of how grim things have been supporting the Toon over recent years was that the last time I felt like this, was when Nobby knocked in a late winner at Leeds nearly ten years ago, crossing himself as he did.
Ok so we still lost this time but the glow remained, I remembered why I still love the Toon and that is important.